Annie's Woodshed: Jumbled Thoughts Under a Dark Cloud

A True Wife

"A true wife makes a man's life nobler, stronger, grander, by the omnipotence of her love 'turning all the forces of manhood upward and heavenward.' While she clings to him in holy confidence and loving dependence she brings out in him whatever is nobles and richest in his being. She inspires him with her courage and earnestness. She beautifies his life. She softens whatever is rude and harsh in his habits or his spirit. She clothes him with the gentler graces of refined and cultured manhood. While she yields to him and never disregards his lightest wish, she is really his queen, ruling his whole life and leading him onward and upward in every proper path. -JR Miller

Friday, June 8, 2012

Jumbled Thoughts Under a Dark Cloud

Have you ever wanted to be someone different? No not someone else just different. Example - the introvert that longs to be an extrovert? How about the vanilla that has a deep seated desire for the kinky and naughty? What about the extrovert that would like to really be an introvert?

That is where I am now I want to be someone different but I can’t help but wonder if I change what would I become? Would it be for the best? Could I go back once I cross that invisible line? Would I want to go back? Who would it hurt and how would it affect the dynamics of my family. Am I capable of change?

I know you are probably saying WHAT? She is losing!

I don’t know what and I am pretty sure I have already lost it LOL. I just know I woke up this morning with the desire just to chunk it all and walk away from life. No I am not talking about killing myself. I guess I am just in a funk. I am just going with the motions of day to day living. Get up shower dress go to work, eat lunch, come home cook read and go to sleep. I hate summer. Hubby’s works outside and his job is very physical and from now until when the weather starts to cool in October he is exhausted from the heat so I am sort of floundering here. Wonder if there is an HOH for hire you know like Merry Maids instead of coming in a cleaning my house he would come in whip me in to shape and then let hubby repeat the benefits. Nah never could do it, this blog pushes me out of my comfort zone just by posting.

The real question I am trying to answer today is what do I want? I mean what is it I really want? If I don’t know what I want how can I tell him what I want?

Maybe I was a gypsy in a former life and that gypsy blood has followed me into this life and it is running hot now.

Me thinks I just need a vacation....

2 comments:

RogueJune 9, 2012 at 10:17 PM
Methinks I need a vacation, too. This one resonated...

Good to see you blogging again. :)
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Colossians 3:18-25

Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord. Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them. Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord. Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged. Slaves, obey in everything those who are your earthly masters, not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but with sincerity of heart, fearing the Lord. Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ. For the wrongdoer will be paid back for the wrong he has done, and there is no partiality. Colossians 3:18-25 ESV

1Peter 3:1-7

Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives, when they see your respectful and pure conduct. Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious. For this is how the holy women who hoped in God used to adorn themselves, by submitting to their own husbands, as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord. And you are her children, if you do good and do not fear anything that is frightening. Likewise, husbands, live with your wives in an understanding way, showing honor to the woman as the weaker vessel, since they are heirs with you of the grace of life, so that your prayers may not be hindered. 1Peter 3:1-7

Proverbs 31: 10-31

An excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life. She seeks wool and flax, and works with willing hands. She is like the ships of the merchant; she brings her food from afar. She rises while it is yet night and provides food for her household and portions for her maidens. She considers a field and buys it; with the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard. She dresses herself with strength and makes her arms strong. She perceives that her merchandise is profitable. Her lamp does not go out at night. She puts her hands to the distaff, and her hands hold the spindle. She opens her hand to the poor and reaches out her hands to the needy. She is not afraid of snow for her household, for all her household are clothed in scarlet. She makes bed coverings for herself; her clothing is fine linen and purple. Her husband is known in the gates when he sits among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them; she delivers sashes to the merchant. Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women have done excellently, but you surpass them all.” Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her of the fruit of her hands, and let her works praise her in the gates. Proverbs 31: 10-31 (ESV)

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