Annie's Woodshed: Warning Combat Zone....

A True Wife

"A true wife makes a man's life nobler, stronger, grander, by the omnipotence of her love 'turning all the forces of manhood upward and heavenward.' While she clings to him in holy confidence and loving dependence she brings out in him whatever is nobles and richest in his being. She inspires him with her courage and earnestness. She beautifies his life. She softens whatever is rude and harsh in his habits or his spirit. She clothes him with the gentler graces of refined and cultured manhood. While she yields to him and never disregards his lightest wish, she is really his queen, ruling his whole life and leading him onward and upward in every proper path. -JR Miller

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Warning Combat Zone....

Step one…

Run for the hills?

As 1700 (aka 5:00 p.m.) Friday creeps closer my stomach is tying up in knots. My head and my heart are doing battle and neither side is giving an inch. My head is screaming “WHAT ARE YOU DOING? You can not give that man this much control over you…remember what the others did…REMEMBER. Do NOT give in don’t trust him.” My heart on the other hand is saying “It will be ok, he is not going to hurt you, he has never hurt you just trust him. It will be ok you will be happier; see how happy you have been lately it will be better this way. JUST TRUST him.”

So here I sit on Thursday trying not to panic. I can’t focus at work, thank goodness there is nothing really demanding my attention, and to make matters even worse I have asked hubby to teach me a few new techniques that would please him. You see I am really naïve when it comes to certain things. Remember I warned you I was vanilla. At my house even the kids go out of their way to “protect” my prudish ways. This past week while reading the boot camp (BC) information I really got curious about some of the things they were talking about and the devices they suggested using so I went to Amazon.com and welllll…OMG I am going to go crawl back under my rock; I was not ready for that kind of education. Those things are HUGE! I must have been in the elephant section. Go ahead and laugh hubby and a friend have laughed at my experience this week. One of them even said I was like a kid in a candy store. More like Robin Williams in “Moscow on the Hudson” when he went to the grocery store and fainted on the coffee isle.

Yes I am having second thoughts, third and fourths too. I am questioning my sanity and wondering what the heck have I gotten myself into. Tomorrow evening at 5:00 I relinquish all rights. I will no longer have the right to argue, oppose, contradict, refuse or question my husband in any shape, form or fashion; especially in how he chooses to exercise his authority. I will be allowed to state my fears and concerns but he will make all decisions.

My chant right now is just breathe…breathe in…breathe out…breathe in…breathe out (I feel like I am back in Lamaze classes.) I guess this is a little like child birth. I am to the point of no return, I remember the nurse telling me with my first born “honey it is too late now there is no turning back” and to think I went through two more natural child births after that... (where is that fainting smiley?!)

Deep down I know it will be ok and my world will be in correct order again. It is just the letting go and trusting. I can’t wait to see the end results I really am excited about BC truly I am. I know this will be a relationship builder and it will draw us closer. I just have to get through the nervous stage. Too bad there is not a fast forward button so I can fast forward to next weekend.

11 comments:

saffyFebruary 17, 2011 at 12:24 PM
hugs........you will be just fine. Just trust and remember the fact you typed that it will draw you closer and be a relationship builder .
saffy xx
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Dragon's RoseFebruary 17, 2011 at 2:32 PM
Annie
I know the feeling. I look at power I have put in his hands and my heart stops. What have I done? I keep having to remind myself that he is the one person I trust in this world. It is hard to give up control. I’m not sure what this boot camp thing is about but I wish you the best. Just remember to breath. Hugs…
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Annie's WoodshedFebruary 17, 2011 at 2:38 PM
Saffy, yes I keep reminding myself it will draw us closer together.

Little Missie, It is scary the power that we place in our husbands hands isn't.
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Annie's WoodshedFebruary 17, 2011 at 2:40 PM
At lunch when hubby was in my office he read this a new post and chuckled. He said just remember if you forget to breathe you will pass out and start breathing normally. Gotta love 'em
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abbyFebruary 17, 2011 at 2:59 PM
LOL..love hubby's comment. Trusting and letting go, i fyou can accomplish that in a weekend you are super woman! But I bet these first stips will be well worth it. BREATHE!
abby
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Annie's WoodshedFebruary 17, 2011 at 3:34 PM
Oh Abby BC will last at least 3 weeks maybe 4 he hasn't decided yet, but I am usually good with changes after about a few days that is why I said fast forward to next weekend. I am by no means super woman so this weekend I am sure there will be several "unplanned" sessions. Actually he has already started I am not allowed to touch a door outside the house. He still catches me opening my car door and all he has to do is clear his throat and I know I have goofed. I tried passing it off as the pressure of his door shutting forced mine open but he didn't buy that.
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AudraFebruary 17, 2011 at 3:36 PM
Breathing is good! You can do this! I'm rooting for you! Good luck!
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cedenoFebruary 17, 2011 at 11:08 PM
Oh this is so cool. I can't wait to hear how it goes. So, it's only a week? You are so dedicated and brave. I admire your courage and strength.
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Annie's WoodshedFebruary 18, 2011 at 8:54 AM
Hi Cedeno, no it will be more than a week more like 3 or 4 weeks. I only said fast forward to next weekend because I am pretty good with change after the first few days (once the shock wears off LOL) by next weekend I will know what is expected and what to expect so hopefully I won't be tied in knots.
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AnonymousFebruary 18, 2011 at 9:17 AM
That sounds like quite an experience. I can understand how it sounds exciting and frightening for you. I know it will bring you two even closer together. What a wonderful husband you have to do this with you. I hope everything goes great and you get used to it quickly :)
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StormyFebruary 18, 2011 at 7:29 PM
You are braver than me, I can tell you that! Will be waiting for an update. :)
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Colossians 3:18-25

Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord. Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them. Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord. Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged. Slaves, obey in everything those who are your earthly masters, not by way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but with sincerity of heart, fearing the Lord. Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ. For the wrongdoer will be paid back for the wrong he has done, and there is no partiality. Colossians 3:18-25 ESV

1Peter 3:1-7

Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives, when they see your respectful and pure conduct. Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious. For this is how the holy women who hoped in God used to adorn themselves, by submitting to their own husbands, as Sarah obeyed Abraham, calling him lord. And you are her children, if you do good and do not fear anything that is frightening. Likewise, husbands, live with your wives in an understanding way, showing honor to the woman as the weaker vessel, since they are heirs with you of the grace of life, so that your prayers may not be hindered. 1Peter 3:1-7

Proverbs 31: 10-31

An excellent wife who can find? She is far more precious than jewels. The heart of her husband trusts in her, and he will have no lack of gain. She does him good, and not harm, all the days of her life. She seeks wool and flax, and works with willing hands. She is like the ships of the merchant; she brings her food from afar. She rises while it is yet night and provides food for her household and portions for her maidens. She considers a field and buys it; with the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard. She dresses herself with strength and makes her arms strong. She perceives that her merchandise is profitable. Her lamp does not go out at night. She puts her hands to the distaff, and her hands hold the spindle. She opens her hand to the poor and reaches out her hands to the needy. She is not afraid of snow for her household, for all her household are clothed in scarlet. She makes bed coverings for herself; her clothing is fine linen and purple. Her husband is known in the gates when he sits among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them; she delivers sashes to the merchant. Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. She looks well to the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women have done excellently, but you surpass them all.” Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Give her of the fruit of her hands, and let her works praise her in the gates. Proverbs 31: 10-31 (ESV)

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